Late Blooming

Hi.. I am Diana.. I wonder how people can be so confident, expressive, worthy... Where I was so timid, people pleaser. After pleasing everyone in my life j became tired mentally as well as physically. After 25 years of guilt of not being perfect, not being good enough for myself, getting disrespect, not loved from others.. I finally decided to attempt.. Suicide. I jump on the river.

But may be universe never want this. I survived. Depressed me came into my room and sleep.. I take rest mentally rest for 6 month... No talk to others. Just eat and sleep..

I know it's so disturbing. But I did.. And after when I understand that all the people who hurt me also are happy, enjoyed there life without guilt. I cried a lot. But then... I come to my room thinking.......... Then I picked up my pen and paper. I start writting my story with my tears. Tears touch my paper.

After so many years of mental breakdown... 1st time I upload my written story.....

I never accepted but people liked ny thought... They give me love and some come to just meet me.

And 1st time I felt peace in my mind. Someone says it's late blooming... Now I understand this word.

Just like lotus .. Blooms from the mud situation try to pull you down. But at the point where you stop and start listening your heart. Then you grow up. And that hardles make you even more stronger and breaver.

And then you become unbreakable and shine like no other can. Just like out of syllabus, just like lotus.